Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Email to the Politicians

I have written a lot lately on the Facebook page that accompanies this blog about the struggles we have been having in the Cat house. Lots about my feelings of being trapped here. Lack of support or services, lack of help, lack of progress.

I quickly got tired of sitting around feeling like there were no options, nothing I could do. So I wrote an email to my state legislators, Rep. Dan Saddler and Sen. Fred Dyson.  Here is the e-mail:

Dear Sir,


My name is A.  My daughter the Cat was diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome in September of 2012. It was a long road getting the diagnosis and it has been a longer road trying to get her the services she needs in order to make progress. Cat would benefit greatly from intensive Applied Behavioral Analysis (ABA), in home support and care, home modifications, and respite care.

The Cat started struggling with her behaviors at home and in school during 2nd grade in 2011. We tried many things to help manage her behaviors including the Anchorage School District’s Creating Successful Futures program. Ultimately we received a referral for neuropsychological testing which gave us her diagnosis. Since then the Cat's behaviors have continued to escalate, affecting her at school, her development, and her quality of life.  She has a history of self-harm. My parents and I spend most of our time walking on eggshells trying not to trigger a meltdown. Screaming, throwing things, hitting, spitting, choking herself were almost daily occurrences.  Because of these violent blow outs, The Cat could not be in an after school child care program and I have been unable to work for the past 2 years living on public assistance and social security.

After receiving her diagnosis I met with staff at FOCUS, Inc. and began the process of applying for the Medicaid waiver, with the first step of gaining Developmental Disability Eligibility.The Cat was denied, because at this point I did not have enough supporting documentation to display her developmental deficits.

In the almost 2 years since receiving her diagnosis, I have enrolled the Cat in physical therapy (PT), occupational therapy (OT), and speech therapy (SLP). I have received a copy of the neuropsychological evaluation completed by Dr. F, I got copies of all the records from all of the evaluations I had done, and applied again. The Cat was denied for the second time, claiming she did not meet the criteria and was not delayed enough in enough areas.

In October the Cat’s behaviors and challenges became so severe that even with medication I had to have her admitted to North Star Hospital for inpatient treatment. I am the only one currently providing care for my daughter and I am suffering from burn out.

Asperger’s has presented the Cat with many difficulties. She cannot bathe herself without step by step direction and help to rinse her hair. She cannot brush her own teeth. These are a result of a lack of executive planning function in her brain and general low muscle tone. The Cat cannot tie her shoes, button her blouses, or brush her own hair. All of these are fine motor issues. She is unaware of potential dangers around her and will walk right out into traffic. Still the Division of Senior and Disability Services say she is not developmentally delayed enough. I am watching my daughter slowly slip further behind her typically developing peers.

I have applied and been denied a total for 4 times for DD eligibility. We are told repeatedly that  the Cat is not delayed enough in enough areas to qualify. The organizations helping me to apply tell me to wait 3-4 more years, because the differences will be more apparent. I cannot sit and watch my child slip away for another 4 years without doing all I can to help.

With ABA and other services,  the Cat could learn to cope with her meltdowns, learn more acceptable replacement behaviors, and how to care for herself. In home care and services would allow me to go off of public assistance, go back to work, and  the Cat would not have needed in-patient treatment, saving money all around. The cost of 1 year of public assistance benefits and residential treatment versus 1 year of ABA is nearly double ($65,758 vs $37,576. $720/m ATAP, $438/m FS, $258/m SSI, $48,766 North Star 1 year. 671 annual hrs. @ $56 an hour) (personal benefits, Autism Speaks write up AK SB 74 passed 2012).

I know that my daughter has a chance to become a fully functioning member of society with the proper supports and interventions now. Research and best practices all support that early intervention is vital when working with children on the Autism Spectrum.

I am hoping that you will be able to offer me some assistance in gaining the DD eligibility, and the Medicaid Waiver, so that I will be able to once again become self-sufficient, supporting myself and my daughter.

Thank you for any help and advice you might be able to provide in this matter.


Sincerely,
A

***Names changed to protect anonymity

Today I heard back from one of Rep. Dan Saddler's aides. She gave me a lot of information and I am working on a second post to disclose that information. The point here is to let you know that you do have options, please do not give up.

Talk to y'all later.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Our Reality

Today we are missing the sunshine and roses. Today there are no unicorns and rainbows.

We have yelling, screaming, SIBs, and threats. We have tears, cursing, stomping, and destruction.

Today we have no where to turn. There is no one to call, no service available. Unless we want to go back "there". The Cat has been discharged from the only services she received. Its not their fault. They were great. But they are  not designed to provide therapies and other services for kids on the spectrum. They can help with behavioral health. They did the best they could. The Cat just needs thing that they cannot provide.

There is no emergency agency to call, to say "I need help" "Things are bad" "I do not know what to do".

There is no counselor or therapist I can call on Monday. They all have waiting lists miles long. I could call her doctor, but that would just mean more meds. I do not want to medicate her into oblivion. I want to know how to help the Cat through this. I want to teach her ways to cope.

There is opening a new Autism unit. But I do not know that it is any good, or even open yet. The last time she went there, she came home with more ideas. She lost a piece of herself, it won't come back. But it might be my only option.

The fact that there are not enough services, that we can't help families in crisis. This is not ok. We need to do more. But that doesn't help me now.

So what do I do? How do I get through this? I know by the end of the night we will be collapse into a ball of tears and exhaustion.

The Cat will fall asleep, after more tears, anxiety, and SIBs. I will struggle to find the strength to get up tomorrow, hoping, praying that something will "go right", that it will be a little easier. Wishing for the Cat to have a good day again, to find some peace and happiness.

Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Maybe tomorrow we won't need the respite that we don't have. Maybe tomorrow I will find the rainbows.

But today, I cannot find them. Today I need the help. Today is not a better day. Today there are no rainbows. The clouds are hanging low around the Cat House, and there is no help or rest for the weary.